Sick and Stuck

It's a constant reminder of what you don't have when the school calls not even 30 minutes into the day and says my son has a fever.  I say to myself why would he go to school and not say he wasn't feeling well??? God will only know that answer but now I sit and panic on how am I going to get him without a car.  It's the worst feeling knowing I don't have dependable people to rely on and the one friend I do ignores the text as if she can't understand why I would ask her for help.  Thank God for his Aunt she happened to be home from work not feeling well herself and came and got me so I could get him. 

My little Marcus

I just don't ask people for much and it's sad when you do so much for friends and when you need a favor or are in a bind it's a different story.  But you are always there for them.  I think I need to start picking the people I choose in my life a little better.

Well the good news is my little boy is home resting on the couch and he didn't have to wait long for me.  I don't feel sorry for myself I know that this is a situation that I will one day look back at and know I will get through this and any other side roads God puts in my path.  I just want to be there for my children.  And right not it's not me I feel sorry for it's them.  They are the ones that know I don't have a way to get them here or there.  And I don't want them to feel like they are a burden because they need things too.  I love them and I want them to know I fight everyday to just keep going and know that one day it will all get better.  When they day will come God is the only one that knows the answer.~EMC